Doctor Contradictions and when will it end!?

Haven't been on for a while, we went away at the weekend visiting family, lovely weekend but the usual stresses followed us down, adding to them the fact rory was keeping everyone awake both nights, i know its not his fault but you cant help feeling guilty that its disrupting them. Having said that, it was lovely to be away from home!

We've been to the docs again today and he has ANOTHER ear infection in both ears again! he on another dose of anti-b's.

Now. I'm confused.

at my docs surgery you see whichever doc is free on the day, about 2 weeks ago i took him because he was pulling at his ears, she told me they were pink but should clear up on their own. I said that i had heard and read that reflux does cause things like throat/ear/chest infections. she said point blank, "i have never heard of reflux causing any sort of infection, infections are to do with bacteria". fair enough.

Today i saw a different doctor, who said he needed anti-b's as he has quite a bad ear infection again in both his ears. i said he's had tons of ear infections and whenever anybody has ever checked his ears they are never normal colour, what could be causing these re occurring ear infections. She said that they were deffinately caused by the reflux and its common in reflux babies to get these sorts of infections, i then told her about him not being any better on the meds/hypoallergenic formula and him having painful episodes every night and i told her that the specialist told me there's nothing more they can do for him and he'll grow out of it etc.. She said that there's loads of other things to try and from what she can see and what ive told her he obviously needs to be on stronger meds as he's suffering and in pain.

So she's told me to go to them and be extra assertive and really badger them to help him once and for all.

Also we've been told that if he gets another ear infection he'll need to be referred to the ear specialist as getting re-occuring ear infections can lead to middle ear infection/damage causing hearing difficulties. for goodness sake when will my little bubs be able to enjoy his life!!

I feel really sad for him at the moment, its really getting me down, i just want him to be well and happy and giggly and having fun! i also feel so guilty about my lovely lovely older bubba boy, i make such a huge effort to make a fuss of him but i feel that he cant really enjoy his brother fully either because of all these different things going on, i know it worries him and he's even asked me before if rory was going to die. its gives me a pain in my heart to think of him worrying so much about him.

where are these easy, relaxing, carefree family days i long for!!!!?

ho hum and big sighs
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