I've ended up with Depression

Replies to This Discussion

Permalink Reply by Annabel Sharp on December 21, 2009 at 22:16

Thanks for sharing your experience with everyone, I also have suffered from Post Natal Depression and thankfully had a very understanding GP. I ended up having some great sessions with my HV who is qualified in Human Givens's Councelling. It has helped me come out of my depression and it is helping me cope with terrible anxiety I suffer from. I have always been prone to it, but having a baby with bad reflux and a demanding 3 year old has not helped. It has pushed me to my emotional and physical limits. I now have 'coping strategies' that I find work very well, although I must say when Robbie has been very ill, and we have been admitted to hospital my 'strategies' tend to go out the window and I find I cant focus on anything other than reflux. However, on a day to day basis I would thourghly reccomend speaking to someone and Human Givens (similar to CBT) works very well. I find actualyy admitting how hard I find it helps as does talking to people who understand. I would say finding this site has been a lifeline, as I realise I am not struggling alone. Thanks everyone who have been so much support x

• ▶ Reply

Permalink Reply by Victoria on December 23, 2009 at 15:18

I am the same hun - bad PND following reflux hell - my LO is 10 months old and is over the worst of it (I have a toddler too) but I have not got over it all - had counselling which has helped but I still feel so anxious and can't sleep

Can't help much except to say meds have helped me xx

• ▶ Reply

Permalink Reply by Annabel Sharp on December 23, 2009 at 21:02

thanks, its just a help to know im not alone. Robbie is almost 11 months old, we sound at a similar stage with everything. I also have great difficulting getting quality sleep, when Robie isn't waking up, im pretty much lying awake waiting for him to. My most anxious time is the evenings as I sit downstairs waiting for the monitor to flash. Im actually having difficulty settling myself to wray Xmas presents - does that sound crazy???!

• ▶ Reply

Permalink Reply by Angie on December 23, 2009 at 15:40

sending you a hug x

• ▶ Reply

Permalink Reply by Belinda on December 24, 2009 at 14:02

Hi chuck, your not on your own I was never diagnosed with PND I just knew I had it, but never wanted to admit to it.
I use to think to myself that my life was over and all I would ever had was this crying screaming little bundle of joy, or thats what I thought it should be. I couldn't bond with her, hated every minuet of being with her, (Im ashamed to admit that). There were times I thought about some one fostering her just till she was well, then having her back, (but still seeing her every day as I knew I would miss her deeply). I use to think I was the worst mother in the world not being able to take her in my arms and help comfort her, it had always worked with the other two.
I craved time away, even 5 minuets to go to the loo alone, but as soon as I got the chance, I would rush straight back.
She is 17 months old now and it has only been the last 4 months ish, that I have actually enjoyed having her, feeling like we are now bonding. We are not totally reflux free, and i still HATE to her her cry or whing over any thing as it reminds me how horrible the first 12 months of her life have been.
I can no longer look at a pregnant person and think rrrrrr how lovely shes having a baby any more, all I ever think is OH MY GOD I hope it not a refluxer, do they no what they have let there self in for. I never EVER even thought about an ill baby, Its defenatly been a real big eye opener for me. Put me off any more for life.
I am a working mom, and again ashamed to admit that getting back to work helped me cope, a break away really helps. seeing normallity still excists.
It does get better with age, Just hang on in there, except any/all help and take regular breaks.
Good luck and merry xmas.

• ▶ Reply

Permalink Reply by k smith on December 27, 2009 at 21:40

Thankyou to all who have replied, it is nice to know that I am not alone in finding the whole reflux thing difficult.

Belinda I totally know where you are coming from. Whenever my other half was off work I would pass my son over to him as I saw it as an escape for me, even for 5 minutes. I am lucky as I did bond with my son but I just found being with him day and night utterly exhausting, the crying and sicking up was relentless. As mentioned I have a now 3 year old daughter but this whole Reflux thing has had a big effect on her too. She has turned into a clingy little girl who will cry to get my attention, after all its all she has seen her baby brother do for the last year and it gets attention. (clever little toddlers).

Well its been 2 weeks nearly since I started my medication. I have to be honest they knocked me for 6 the 1st week but I am adjusting to them now slowly slowly. As I've mentioned, I never thought for one minute I would need help like this but I so glad I sought help now.

As irony would have it, my sons reflux seems to be easing............he is almost mobile on his feet, spend most of the day on them walking around the furniture or pushing his push along thingy, and Im wondering is that is making a difference with his pain???? The Paed seemed to think it should, so fingers crossed.

Thanks for all your support ladies.
x

• ▶ Reply

Permalink Reply by Wendy Marsh on December 28, 2009 at 9:54

I just want to say that just like reflux gets better so does PND and there will be a light at the end of that dark tunnel. I had severe PND with my first son who interestingly wasn't a refluxer, I had CBT with a fantastic therapist and I was terrified of it returning when I had my second one even though I knew every coping strategy known to man. Then reflux struck and every health professional around me was convinced he was fine and I was depressed, having fought very hard to get them to listen to me I got treatment for him. I am on medication again but my GP (who is new to the practice and not judging by the past) says it is simply the pressure of looking after a little one with reflux and now he is improving I am fine, interestingly I have always been able to sleep when Harry lets me!

I see myself as a recovered PND sufferer but there were times when it was really tough and I was terrified to go there again. I just wanted to say I know what it's like to be in that dark place, where everything you do feels like it has no point to it and you just feel like you are wearing iron boots but it does get better, medication helps and it you can get access to some CBT or counselling then that is brilliant, technically with the governments initiative for everyone to have access to psychological thereapies most should be able to get it on the NHS but as we know the NHS can be very patchy and it really depends on the individual whether they give you access to the help or not.

Hang in there girls and if any of you need to let off steam or need someone who undertands then feel free to PM me.

Hugs to all of you X

• ▶ Reply